My husband and I dearly need time away.
Life has been pretty intense for us these last few months. Each year around this time we try to get a brief respite and attend a function that revolves around one of my husband’s many hobbies.
Both of us look forward to this. It may only be for a very brief spell but it is time to leave the daily pressures behind.
Now it looks like we may be unable to go. Our ‘plans’ are on hold–if not ruined.
Quite honestly, I find myself suffering from disappointment! Oh, our time away may still come to pass but there is a part of me that would gladly like to sit down and have a temper tantrum like a two-year-old and whine: It isn’t fair. We NEED this. Why? Why does it look like we won’t be able to do this? With all that we have had to handle lately, can’t you just give us a break? We are in danger of cracking under this pressure.
I’m suffering God. Don’t you know that?
I’ll admit that I am pretty bumbed. I’m tired of doctor’s offices. I’m tired of dealing with problems. I’m tired of bad drivers, media ‘breaking news’ items that are about as serious most times as an ingrown toenail alert, and people protesting rather than fixing.
I had a passage all picked out this morning…until I looked at the weather forecast fo the next few weeks and saw that it might interfere with our plans. Then God reminded me I’d better calm down. Luke 22:39-46-And he came out, and went, as he was wont to the mount of Olives: and his disciples also followed him. And when he was at the place, he said unto them, Pray that ye enter not into temptation. And he was withdrawn from them about a stone’s cast, and kneeled down, and prayed. Saying, Father, if thou be wiling, remove this cup from me: nevertheless not my will, but thine, be done. And there appeared an angel unto him from heaven, strengthening him. And being in an agony he prayed more earnestly: and his sweat was as it were great drops of blood falling down to the ground. and when he rose up from prayer, and was come to his disciples, he found them sleeping for sorrow. And said unto them, Why sleep ye? Rise and pray, lest ye enter into temptation.
Several things hit me reading this passage. First, Jesus went to often to pray at the mount of Olives as he was wont. Obviously, this was a habit. A place where he often went to spend time alone in prayer.
Second, Jesus had little ‘alone’ time. His disciples followed Him. Now, much as he loved these followers, I am sure Jesus longed for some peace now and then when he didn’t have to be ‘on’ or deal with questions.
Thirdly, Jesus advised them to pray so they wouldn’t be tempted. He knows what is coming. He knows what will happen. He knows they will need sustaining to get through it all. He also knows that by praying they will be helped…yet, they fall asleep.
Fourthly, even Jesus had His moments where he wanted a time ‘out’.
As a Doctor Who fan, I remember the controversy over the leaving of David Tenant as he made way for the new Doctor Who in the modern series 5. Tenant’s departure episode revolved around his line: I DON’T WANT TO GO. He knows he is dying and will be regenerated. As the Doctor, he has seen this happen many times…still, in THIS form, at this moment, he doesn’t want to give-way to a new regeneration to Matt Smith. He wants to STAY.
Christ wanted to stay. His agony was so great at the task he had ahead of Him that great drops of blood were falling off of him like sweat.
Jesus, at this moment, was bleeding submission.
Submission to God’s will.
This submission to the coming path He was to undertake was so great that an angel had to come to strengthen Him.
Lastly, Jesus had instructed His disciples to pray but found them ‘sleeping in sorrow’. The past week was catching up to them. They had undergone such triumph with the hail of palm fronds, hearing the shouts and praise of the people. Then Jesus had informed them that He was leaving, that times were going to get rough, that one of their number was actually going to betray Him.
They didn’t want to believe it. They didn’t want to comprehend just how rough it was going to get. They were worn, frazzled, and dispirited. Oh, they may have tried to pray, but the human need for sleep outweighed whatever spiritual tools they had left and they succumbed to weariness.
My life isn’t going where I’d planned.
Maybe yours isn’t, too?
We are tired, dispirted, succumbing to weariness even when we are seeing clearly how blessed we are to be breathing.
No matter how we would like to howl and stamp at our circumstances, we need to rethink where we are.
We are still ALIVE. We have a Savior who walks WITH us. We have prayer to SUSTAIN us. We have a God who LOVES us. Most of all, we have a Master who laid down his life for us.
If that doesn’t turn our attitude around, I don’t know what will!
We still need a break…but it will happen when the timing is right. To accept otherwise would be foolish for God ALWAYS knows best. Our Heavenly Father has things under control. We can either accept that or suffer needlessly thinking that we know best.